I feel like I have been a blogging machine lately!! Today has been one of those days, where i am worn out, but thankful I had one of the most rewarding opportunities to invest in my students, and walk along side of one of my leaders tonight. I have been blessed with many ministry opportunities, that have challenged me, that have stretched me, but most of all ones that I look back and see just how much I have grown. Today was one of those days.
I feel like in the last year along, I have come a long way with my campus life/Skyline ministry. However, I still find myself thinking if I am in the right place, if I am doing enough, if I am called to be in OKC for the time being... all these things circle in my head each week.
I miss our families so much. I feel like one day, we will be able to experience life close to them. I keep reminding myself that God hasn't called us there yet.. that he is working an amazing masterpiece in mine and Jarrod's life. That he is saying, "This is where I NEED YOU!" I know he has a mission and a calling here and now for us, but i am so future minded, that I get caught up on where we will be within the next few years.
Tonight I heard a song that is a few years old, that spoke to me in a whole new way. It's called "If You Say Go" here are the lyrics:
If You say go, we will go
If You say wait, we will wait
If You say step out on the water
And they say it can't be done
We'll fix our eyes on You and we will come
Your ways are higher than our ways
And the plans that You have laid
Are good and true
If You call us to the fire
You will not withdraw Your hand
We'll gaze into the flames and look for You
I am learning to so content with where we are in life. It's a time to grow, to learn and to love. It's a time to dream and act. Its a time to either be depressed or find joy in life. If I go about each day wondering why things have changed, or wondering why I am not where I want to be, life is going to get dark. However, if i seek God in the here and now, and find his love and joy in my life currently, life is going to be so sweet that it is overwhelming. I am choosing to follow God. I am choosing to love the ones near and far, but most of all, I am choosing to serve him now.
If we need to wait, that is what we will do... If we need to move now, we will move our feet... If we need to do something challenging in order to trust Our God, we will. Knowing his ways are not our ways, and what he has in store for us is good and true, is comforting. I have a peace tonight that God is at work. He is doing amazing things, and all I need to do is trust, and follow.